I am a 19-year-old female in college from Western Kentucky. I have some family history of mental illness and trauma that I believe gave me a disposition to psychosis. Before marijuana use, I was a 4.0 student with a lot of anxiety. I was also a very happy person. When I smoked marijuana, I acted out of character and forgot daily hygiene. I also experienced psychosis and depersonalization the very first time I smoked, but I continued to use weed to cope with these symptoms, not knowing it would make things worse.
I would stop using marijuana for months, and then I would start smoking again and continue daily for months. This cycle continued for quite a while. Then, right before Thanksgiving last year, I went back to using weed after taking a long break from it. I only took one puff that day from some pretty potent stuff and ended up totaling my car that night.
Eventually, my family had me put in the hospital for my mental health. I was at the lowest point in my life. I was diagnosed with bipolar and realized I needed to change. They gave me mood stabilizers and an antipsychotic.
That was five months ago. The medicine helps, and I know without it, I would just be plain insane. I’m hoping that my brain will heal one day.
I want to urge people to take marijuana seriously and stop using it before irreversible consequences occur. I wrote this to help spread awareness because weed psychosis is real and has real effects, but you can recover, and it’s worth it to get help. I urge anyone who is struggling with marijuana to seek help, whether it be therapy or medication or just talking about it.